May 26th- The Miracle of Andy

May 26, 2014

Today was my first real day off in quite a while. It was nice. I got to go hiking. I love hiking so much. It was a little hike but it was still enough to enjoy the trees, open air and all the scenery.

The only problem was that the person I was with didn't really help me with my adverse feelings of myself. In fact, for the past couple days, I have been feeling quite low. Some men just don't know what respect is. Either that, or I am just not worth respecting. Which is a probable case.

When I got home tonight I was feeling so empty, disheartened and down. So much so, that I textualized a friend of mine only to realize that I had sent it to the wrong person. In trying to send it to my friend, Angela, I sent a plea of comfort to my friend, Andy. I haven't seen Andy in quite some time. The idea that him getting this information was just unbearable. Notwithstanding my reassurances that I would be fine, he came over to comfort me anyway.

As opposed to it as I was, his stubbornness was what saved me tonight. He hugged me and told me everything would be okay. I knew it would be but the reminder was nice. It's nice to know that I have friends out there who care enough to drop anything to help me. What a miracle!

May 25th- The Miracle of Hope

May 25, 2014

Today was so nice. Church is always so amazing and fills me with the drive and passion to move forward and not look back. I have lots of things I need to change about myself. Thankfully, I was reminded today that I can still get there. Hope is not lost. What a miracle!

May 24th- The Miracle of Nature

May 24, 2014

I won't lie to you, today was a weird day. It was one of those days that you just wake up in the morning and have a certain feeling that it's going to be a bad day. Well, when feelings like that occur for me, it is hard to look past them. Nevertheless, I tried anyway.

The crowning moment of today was on a picnic in St. Anthony. There is a beautiful park there just by the snake river. It was beautiful. Sitting there in the beautiful sun and feeling the gentle breeze was beyond description. You just can't recreate beauty like that. There is something so calming and warm about nature. I believe it is God's way of reminding us that He loves us very much. What a miracle!

May 23rd- The Miracle of Ballroom

May 23, 2014

Today was actually really nice. Latin dancing was cancelled bevause all of the instructors were gone for the weekend. LAME. So instead I got to go to ballroom. It was really nice. I missed dancing with good dancers and it helped me feel more confident. What a miracle!

May 22nd- The Miracle of Allergies

May 22, 2014

Well, today was a day. I had so much to do and NO time at all. Today we went to Hiesee, that sulfur springs I talked about before. It was a crazy time! As it turns out, I am allergic to the sulfur in the water there! I had no idea!

While we were "playing" in the water, I was holding my client. Out of nowhere I got this terrible headache. It was so bad that I couldn't see. I didn't understand why I was hurting so badly so suddenly. Well, I figured it out! I had an allergic reaction to the water. I am just amazed that it didn't do anything worse to me! I could have died! What a miracle!

May 21st- The Miracle of Silliness

May 21, 2014

Today was an interesting day. After Lacrosse practice, I took a teammate over to her friend's football game. It was raining and the wind was crazy. While we waited, she asked if I wanted to go out and play in the rain. To which, I of course said yes!

Today's miracle is that I got to run around and be silly in the rain. I loved it very much. What a miracle!

May 20th- The Miracle of a "Thing"

May 20, 2014

Well friends, it's been a while. Almost a week in fact. Fear not, I have seen miracles. The problem has been that I have been so busy and so depressed that I just haven't gotten around to it. But I am back. Don't you worry.

Today's miracle is brought to you in part by scheduling-it's a beautiful thing. Tuesday's and Thursday's are particularly busy for me because I have so much to do and so little time! I have to plan everything out by the hour so that I am not late for anything and I don't miss anything. I love it. I love the structure.

However, after a while, it is physically draining. Today I showed up to my last appointment for the day completely drained. It had been a hard day at work, hard time in class and I was ready to go home, eat something and finish homework. My counselor apologized upon entering saying that he had to cut it short because he had a "thing" he had to take care of. As cryptic and intriguing as that sounded, I didn't ask questions. I was just thrilled that I had some more time in my day. It gave me a bit more time to eat and do homework! So that was nice. The end. What a miracle!